God has provided in many ways throughout my entire life, but I have been more aware over the past year than ever before. When Mrs. S and I took a leap of faith by bringing her in the home our amazing Creator lovingly supplied all of our financial needs and then some. We have not had to worry about finances at all over the recent months. While all of this was great I was completely unaware that inside of me contentment was brewing and I was becoming comfortable with our state of blessings. The funny thing is that I always seem to believe that if God were to take away our blessings I would be oh so perfectly fine with giving it back. Wrong! I was such a fool to think that I would be alright with giving back what God had bestowed upon me. With the initial blessing I was humble and almost fearful to accept, but when it came time for me to let go of some of these financial blessings I realized how much I had begun to depend upon them instead of the Provider. Selfishness reared its head and I desired to control the situation instead of humbly giving back to God what was His. I fought against our handsome Lord and as with all other battles He easily defeated a weary and stumbling foe. My fear of not being able to handle the curve ball life had thrown had become my pain and I quickly threw that at His radiant feet as an excuse of why my behavior had become so foolish. I compared my pain to something He must understand, not realizing that I was comparing my pain to the one who hung for my sin and suffered the agony of His Father turning His face away from the pain He was feeling on the cross.
After I recovered from my selfish stupor I discovered that what Christ gives to us we must be ready and willing to give right back. God does not bless us so that we may keep those blessing to our selves but rather so that we may share them with others or humbly give them back when He requests.
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